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| Everyone has their 'defining moment.'That point in their life "at which the essential nature of a person or group etc,.is identified."I feel like I have had a couple of defining moments but one just one I believe it was true to me.
It was in April, damn I can't believe in four months it would be a year ago.But April 2007 I had the biggest rejection of my life and which I was not expecting.When I traveled to Virginia for the 'man' I loved and he slammed the door in my face it seemed like my life wasn't going to get better.I loved him.I truly gave up a lot for him, and I not only loved him but I understood him and loved all of the differences he had.So I traveled 24 hours non stop and got rejected, stayed in a city I wasn't familiar with, slept in a room that may have seen better days back in the 60s.I got no phone call saying "Where are you?" no call saying "Are you okay?"I took the next flight out and had another 24 hour non stop flight.At that point I felt not only rejected but hurt, scared and lonely.I waited for this man. I moved for this man. I gave him a lot of me and a lot of 'good' me. So what did I do to deserve this?What did I say to him?It was all confusing. |
| It was all confusing.To this day, I have not idea.Several months later I was trying to better myself.I made the effort to try and say my 'sorrys' to the deserving people that I had hurt from my past.And in that small group of friends was a family.My ex's family to be exact.They were kind enough to except me back into their lives and together we healed the scare that I made several years ago.I wanted to let my ex know how I felt and that I was sorry.I hurt him.I knew that I always have but it was time to let him know.To break down my own barriers and open up to him.So we started 'talking' via text message.He made a comment one afternoon, "I heard that 'his name' fucked you over" and I replied yeah, he did but I can only get stronger.His reply back was "Have you ever thought maybe you deserved it?That what goes around comes around?" |
| That what goes around comes around?"DAMN.It seemed to obvious.He was in love with me. We were in love and I hurt him.I burned, scared, and disappointed him.I never gave him a reason I never gave him a sorry.He just dealt with it.And now that's what I was going through, not the same circumstances by any means but the same idea.That in which was my defining moment.That it went around.That I hurt him, I left him to burn didn't even look back and now I was in his shoes.So now I think before I act.For my defining moment changed my life.He allowed me to realize what I did and what I was going through wasn't all that different.What was your defining moment? |
| What was your defining moment? |
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